There are those who don’t get luck handed to them on a shiny platter, who end up in the wrong place at the wrong time, who don’t get saved.
Luck was not on Callie’s side the day of her twelfth birthday when everything was stolen from her. After it’s all over, she locks up her feelings and vows never to tell anyone what happened. Six years later her painful past consumes her life and most days it’s a struggle just to breathe.
For as long as Kayden can remember, suffering in silence was the only way to survive life. As long as he did what he was told, everything was okay. One night, after making a terrible mistake, it seems like his life might be over. Luck was on his side, though, when Callie coincidentally is in the right place at the right time and saves him.
Now he can’t stop thinking about the girl he saw at school, but never really knew. When he ends up at the same college as Callie, he does everything he can to try to get to know her. But Callie is reserved and closed off. The more he tries to be part of her life, the more he realizes Callie might need to be saved.
(New Adult Contemporary) **Mature Content** Recommended for ages 17+ due to sexual situations and language.
OK, let’s start with the event. It happens to Callie at the age of 12. It is horrific. So horrific that it changes her in very visceral ways. She cuts her hair, wears baggy clothes, and has a complete personality change. Her mother, seeing these disturbing behavioral patterns, sends her to a therapist a couple times. The therapist doesn’t get to the root of the problem so Mom just chalks it up to teen angst and goes on her merry way. (and it must be mentioned that her Mom is a pill popper) Are you fucking kidding me!? My daughter butchers her hair, can’t stand to let people touch her and changes literally overnight, I am raising all kinds of hell to find out what happened and help her.
Ok, so six years of this ingrained into her life and then she meets Kayden. She saves his life, he doesn’t thank her and then she is off to start college early and to “start her life” After one summers worth of classes she meets a boy who becomes her best friend, confides everything in him and begins to get over her issues. Really!? In 3 months, this boy manages to undo 6 years? I think not. And the boy, Seth, is his own kind of effed up. He has endured gay bashing and beating by football players at his old school. He avoids all contact with football players. But Kayden and Luke are football players and a few scenes later Seth and Callie are partying in a house full of them. Yeah, sure, that’s totally plausible.
Enter Kayden again. He graduated with Callie and are now going to the same college. Their families were friends and they had dinners together but he barely recognizes her when she saves him or when he sees her in college. When he does finally figure out she saved him and feels guilty for not thanking her. He is his own kind of messed up after enduring years of abuse from his psycho father, with no help from his alcoholic mother. Also he is a cutter because it helps to “make the pain go away” He immediately falls for Callie and starts having dirty dreams about her. Ok, THAT I can get. Hormonal teenage boy and all that. It’s about the only thing that rings true in this story.
His roommate is also introduced. Friend from school, Luke, also had his own issues, the main one being diabetes. This is touched on only once and I feel like it was only thrown in there as plot twist solely for the purpose of causing angst between Kayden and Callie. Also there are repeated scenes where they are all drinking. Umm, am I the only one who knows diabetics shouldn’t drink? I feel like this author just thinks we are stupid.
So now, Kayden and Callie. He immediately begins to pursue her and she starts letting him touch her, kiss herm etc. She only has one freak out when he says something that reminds her of his attacker. They get together after a very superficial resistance on Callie’s part. Then they go home for Thanksgiving. Yes, all this miraculous change and growth has happened in only months. More drama with Kayden and his Dad, Kayden makes an attempt to actually fight back, we find out who Callie’s attacker is, Kayden beats the shit out of him, gets thrown into jail, gets bailed out by Dad who proceeds to take him home and stabs him. Then Kayden starts to cut himself to take away the pain, ending in a pool of his own blood on his kitchen floor for Callie and Luke to find him…the end.
WHAT!? SERIOUSLY!? This book was so many levels of WTFuckery I have only touched on the worst of it. I really feel like the silver lining here is I only paid 99 cents for the book and that I waited to read this one first before buying more of her books. I know this review was all spoiler but really, it had to be to gain an understanding of just how messed up it really is. In this entire book, the only characters who weren’t messed up were Callie’s brother and Dad. We never really see the Dad and the brother is just an ass to her.
This is the very first 1 star review I have ever done. I am just so disappointed by this book. There were really good bones to this story, if only they had been explored to the fullest, instead of feeling like it was all just thrown in to make the characters suffer even more. Now this story has a crap load of 5 star reviews. That’s great. I am glad that there are so many people out there that like it. After all, variety is the spice of life. If we all liked the same things the same way then life would be boring.